Tuesday, July 12, 2011
She had absolutely lost it.
Which made me think (and suddenly become very nervous) about having kids.
I have QUESTIONS. And concerns.
Like... what if your kid grows up to be someone you don't even LIKE? Mean, obnoxious, racist, or homophobic?? I'd like to believe that your child takes on your own open-hearted views, but in truth, though they are your spawn, they are separate human beings who develop their own views based on their own life experiences.
To be completely honest, I think I am just too damn selfish right now to have kids. There are a multitude of things I want to do before I devote my life to the creation and upbringing of another, and I'm just not ready to give them up yet. Like laying on the couch for nine hours straight watching Lifetime Original Movies and eating a gallon of icecream. Or reading my book uninterrupted. Or even watching what I want on TV, not Spongebob Squarepants. And based on my friend's post about the perils of grocery shopping with 2 kids under 2, I now have a newfound appreciation for going to the Price Chopper all by myself.
I often think that I'm not old enough to take care of MYSELF; how will I take charge of another human?
I know that when the time comes, I'll be totally psyched. K and I both WANT kids, and I know it will be awesome when it happens.
I just hope they aren't douchebags.
Does anybody else worry about things like this??